There was some point in time where I decided I was going to push myself to become exactly what I wanted to be, and it was way before I even understood what DJing was; but I got lost somewhere on that road. I can't say I was ever a bad person. I was never a liar or a cheater, never a person that you couldn't trust in a time of need, and my number 1 rule is to never disrespect someone. I stand by those rules about myself today as I have always tried to. Of course there are times where I have slipped up but keeping these values about myself true have gotten me to where I am in an industry filled with liars and the like (shoutout to everyone who isn't, you know who you are).
My form of wandering came in the shape of a demon that looked like substances. Abuse of substances. Ways to ignore all my responsibilities and have fun at the same time? Fuck that sounds awesome. I was out of control (OC) and didn't even realize it; but that's exactly how it works doesn't it. We go through our lives finding things that temporarily make us feel better, things that let us ignore what the real problems are, things that either give us a pain to mask the real pain; pleasure to overcome it; or something nice and shiny to distract us. But how real is what you're holding on to?
It was a rude awakening that brought me out of that slump and it took me a while to climb out of it and get on back on my feet. I went from one end of the spectrum to the other and lived life on both sides. After all this time of ups and downs, tears of joy and happiness, rising to the top of a shady industry while keeping true to my honesty, I can say one thing stands ridiculously apparent to me now; life is about balance.
Enjoy your times being bad and have fun with them. Don't let them get out of control and run your life. Work hard and be responsible so that you have times where you can fun, but don't forget that it's okay to get ridiculous sometimes. I've been working hard and will continue to work hard, but I know that when I'm ready I'll be able to step back and have a good time, without losing control.
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| Stay tuned for Summer Lovin' coming in the next few months. |
-Remain Still
